Re-Run..

I know how you feel! Sometimes I feel like I am back at zero! Though I know I am not, sometimes it just feels like it, you know.



The thing is when it comes to relationships you want to get to a place where you choose to be a in a relationship because you want to be, not because you need to be. I know that lesson, trust me! I stopped doing that when my mom pointed out to me that I train-wrecked men. I realized because of my selfishness I was causing others pain and it wasnt fair, so I stopped doing it, it wasnt easy because I like companionship, but I knew in the end each guy would just be another casualty I would add to my ex-boyfriend graveyard. During the last two years, I have spent by myself, except with my hook-up but thats all it is, and its once a month, I cant even say its some passionate, romantic affair because its not.



You want to hear something really fucking lame? At night I play this game on-line called build it or u-build it, and I play it because its a time management game, and this sounds so fucking pathetic but I dont think about any issues, and it makes me tired. Its almost like I get a break from thinking. So stupid!